New Years Eve Thoughts

This is just probably a woman rambling.  Unless I read this before pressing "publish" & decide it's just too much ;)

I have learned a few things this past year.  I hope someone can relate maybe or learn from it?  Who knows really?

At age 48 I am still learning so stinkin' much.

I am learning that my kids are quite resilient.  They have gone through some serious crap (each in his or her own situation) & they bounce back.  Eventually.  Not right away maybe.  They are also learning in all this.  I have learned that Mom the Protector doesn't necessarily need to show her face every time something happens.  Some times I just need to sit back & watch (pray, pray, pray) and be there if they need to chat or ask questions.  This makes them stronger for sure.

I have learned that I don't need a whole GAGGLE of friends.  Just one or two that WANT to hang out with me.  That totally GET me & will listen & love & just be there when/if I need them.  Those that when I share a prayer request through email or text I am not afraid of them gossiping or anything about the situation I'm going through.  They are legit.  They are the ones I can hang out with & say nothing at all & we are comfortable.  I truly love those friends.  They know who they are because I make sure to tell them how much they are loved.

I have learned there are those that vow to do something & they just don't see it through.  They take a precious situation & no sooner do the words leave their mouths but they are renigging on their promises.  This one is hard especially when it happens to someone I love.

I am learning how to be more empathetic toward people (women mostly just because - well - I am a woman!) with issues at this age.  There are those that make fun of women nearing or going through menopause.   It is certainly a subject that has many, many aspects others make fun of.   Seriously, oh the poor husbands, etc.  Really?  How about loving on the woman going through all these changes?  How about putting yourself in her place instead of just shaking your head at her when the emotions are on the edge . So many other things but really - we can embrace this time of our life & hope that our loved ones will get on board with us.  I, personally, am looking forward to the other side of this.  This is the next phase of my life that God has given me.  I look forward to what it holds.  Now if everyone can just love me through the tough times, that would be great!  I promise to do the same for you!

Woman with thyroid issues?  OH my.  I have learned there are SO many out there!!  This is a serious medical situation.  Turns out it gets worse & needs to be managed again when menopause hits.  We are talking immune system stuff here.  It will throw a body completely out of whack.  When you think you have your eating & fitness down to a science & it's working for you BAM thyroid acts up & couples up with menopause & you need to switch things up again.  It's like going back to the beginning to see what will work for you.  This may lead to adrenal issues if you aren't careful.  Adrenal fatigue is rough.  You REALLY, REALLY need to take care of your body.  REST is SOOO important.    I am still working on this part.

So I have learned a lot.  I look at my kids & am so proud of the grownups they are becoming.  I still can't believe I am old enough to have a 21 year old but hey, I am & these years are just as precious as those first few.

I have been able to learn how to enjoy the moments I have with my family so much better now.  I don't watch it from behind my phone taking pictures or video anymore.  I enjoy the moments as they are.

I hope this reaches someone.  I am appreciative if you made it through my whole rant here.  If you leave me a comment & just say 'HI" that would be great too ;)  I see people are seeing my posts but don't know who you are.

Be Blessed & Happy New YEAR!

Pamela

Post Christmas Ponderings

This past Christmas season was especially poignant to me.  It was the last Christmas we will technically be a family of 5, as officially we will welcome our daughter-in-law in March.  It was the first Christmas in 19 years that all of my children didn’t wake up here. 

Hearts made sad this year by those family members that have chosen to be estranged yet we have been blessed by others that are close enough now to celebrate the birth of Christ with them.

I have realized twice now in 1 week I have heard about Mary “pondering these things in her heart” in regards to Jesus.  This is so true for me right now.  I want to remember every little thing & make sure my children know I love them & they will always have a place to call home. 

I find myself in moments of being extremely capable of starting that cry.  You know which one I’m talking about.  The “ugly” cry.  I understand these things are normal. 

This is the time we raise our children for right?  They are not meant to stay with their Mom’s & Dad’s forever.  We raise them with what they need to go out & spread their wings. 

This Mom might not feel ready for this but I know my oldest is.  He is ready to spread his wings.  He has already been practicing it & I am proud of what I have seen so far.  He needs this time on his own before he gets married in March.  

On to the next phase in his life.  I just hope he can be patient with this Mom who just loves him more than he will ever know.

Happy New Year!

Be Blessed & Live Healthy!!

Merry Christmas & other things

Well, Merry BELATED Christmas!  We had a lovely Christmas & was getting ready to be part of a friends wedding and we got hit with a flu that took my family of 5 DOWN hard!  Sheesh.  My oldest got it first & usually he can be sick & no one else will get it.  Then my other son got it, then my daughter & me and now my hubby.  It's taking a while to get over it but I can honestly say I feel the upswing happening. 

Christmas, as I said was lovely.  Christmas Eve we had our yearly Wagilia traditional dinner at my sisters then we went to church.  Christmas Day after opening presents & just relaxing we walked next door for a fun time at our neighbors house.  So much fun to have neighbors you can hang out with and just be yourself!  We have a few of them & are so blessed!

Thursday was the rehearsal for a friends wedding & my daughter was asked to be one of the flower girls with her little friend being the other.  We were so excited.  Then we woke up the next morning with 103deg fevers.  WHAT??!!  I'll be honest I was in COMPLETE denial.  I don't get sick.  This flu wasn't being discriminatory at all.  All day I walked around with a pit in my stomach that my little girl wasn't going to be able to do what she had been looking forward to for so long AND I felt like we were letting down our friends.  My prayer since then is that they are healthy & well on their honeymoon.  I found out other friends from church have also fallen to this bug.  Just nasty.  A friend asked if we had gotten our flu shots.  I can be honest -- I have never had a flu shot.  Ever.  I just always felt that my body could build up resistance huh?  Well, after this I may rethink that!!

Today is my beautiful princess' birthday.  I can only post this picture because of how sick we are, she just wouldn't have any other picture posted :)  She loved getting her little girly presents & playing for a little while with them. 

 

We are looking forward to bringing in the New Year healthy & blessed. 

 

What are some things YOU are looking forward to in this New Year? 

 

Be Blessed & Healthy!!!!

 

 

Happy New Year!

Wow it's 2012!  I just can't get over it.  Another year.  It's like a new piece of paper!  What are your plans for this year?  Anything new?  Do you make resolutions?  What are they?

Happy New Year!

Be Blessed & Healthy!!

PS - posting some pics from our Texas Christmas soon!!