Forgiveness

I forgive you.

That can be a tough one for some people. Ah, most of the time I think I'm pretty good at it UNTIL someone gets me right in the heart. I'm a person that tends to run on emotion. Probably not good, I realize but I have to think that is the way God made me. What's that saying "fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice......" Yeah, I have let people tell me things and I want to trust them. I want to believe they are being honest with me and I go on with my life thinking that was the case. Then I get hit right in the heart. Nope, they didn't tell me the truth. Not only that but they made me think it was all my fault. It makes me sit back and question myself. Then I hear Gods still small voice. I need to forgive. He forgives me constantly. I turn around and want to throw things and call people names when they hurt me. No, I have to forgive them. I am. I am really working on it. I want to be a daughter my Father in Heaven can be proud of. It's hard. How many times do I have to do this??? what is it? Seventy times seven. (Matthew 18:22)

3 words. That's it. They can be hard sometimes. I picture what my Lord did for me and it makes it easier.

Thanks for "listening".
Be Blessed.

Just one of those days......

Have you just had one of those days? You know, where it starts out pretty good. Things are just close to perfect then SMACK!! You just feel like a MACK truck hit you head on and everything is turned upside down & inside out. Yeah, I just had one of those. I have a saying when I need to be a grown up "put your big girl panties on". Of course if you AREN'T acting like a grown up then you have your "little girl panties on". I know, I know. Silly right? Well, I won't get into how that came about. Anyway, I started out with my "big girl panties" and in a matter of 5 minutes the "little girl panties" were in place and she just took over. Yep, lost it. Completely lost it. Just when I think, yes, I'm going to get a grip. Nope, someone put grease on that ledge and I lost it again. It's those moments that I feel like God is the only thing that you can really hold on to fast and tight. Sometimes I can hear Him so clearly and other times, well, the frustration of WHERE IS HE??? Thankfully this time I felt His presence. But did I want to listen? Goodness! Why do we act like defiant children with Him sometimes? Just don't understand. So, when I stopped feeling sorry for myself and scraped myself up off the floor I got into His Word. Psalm 91:1-6 -- 1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday. "

Wow, I could just go on and on. He protects us no matter what. It's still hard right? I know. My heart is still hurting, tears are still easy to come to the surface but He is with me. Cover me with "His feathers". "He IS my refuge & my fortress". I DO trust in Him. Sometimes I just need to remember to put on my "big girl panties" and remember this.

Thanks for letting me ramble. I hope this helps just one person know that you AREN'T alone. There are others of us out there that hit bottom sometimes and just can't seem to pick ourselves back up off the floor. The person we are in public isn't always what it appears to be.

Be Blessed. I know I am and I'm sure you are too. We have an awesome God.